You're gone!/?

Yesterday, I still could see you standing there so far. Today, I see no shadow of you. You finally disappear. You're gone. And now, I really suck. I really live like a shit. You ask me to live my life on. But how? If my life is gone as well. My life is you. I told you that I need 'step by step' going down this stairs. You ask me to 'jump', and for sure, I 'fall'. And I don't know how to get up.

I really got fatigue being a beggar. This time I won't beg. I won't beg. Let my own life ruins me.
Now, will you really become somebody that I used to know?