Why Him? Why Not Me?

Love is faultless. Yes, I start to believe it. After it took a long time discussing to myself and eventually I agree to let the guardian go. Talking to my  high ego was a hard nut to crack, fortunately it results a decision that love is not to be possessed , but present a happiness. Let the guardian go to where the guardian should be, yes, my heart hold no more.

What I want is simply watching the guardian smiling. I just wanna witness it. Making sure the guardian is happy there. Yet, I see no smile. The guardian said 'the Crab' is inside. Again and again the guardian suffers more. The guardian expects no care of me. The guardian needs time. No, I can't wait any longer because I must know how the guardian is. I must guarantee God looks after the guardian as what I pray every night.

If this thing becomes such complicated, why don't God make it simple. Lay 'the Crab' on me, not on the guardian. Why He chooses the guardian? Why not me? Why not me?